I always try not to put myself in uncomfortable situations. I do not know if that is good or not. Occasionally I would allow myself to go into those situations just to see if my personality has changed or not. I think the few reasons why I tend to stay away from huge crowds is because I feel uncomfortable and insecure. Many people would notice if I am uncomfortable or not. If I am talking to a small group at a part or something, that means I am comfortable. If I'm quietly standing around in a small group but am looking around, that most likely means that I am uncomfortable; sometimes it just means I have no idea what they are talking about or I'm just day dreaming. This blog really had no point, this has just been running through my mind lately and I felt like I just had to blog about it.
Yesterday night I was invited to go out with my best friend and other people. Did I go? Nopes. I was not doing anything at home but I just did not feel like going. Every time she usually invites, I'd say no. I realize that. I guess its because I feel awkward around the people she hangs out with even though I know them too. I'm too quiet so it makes it feel even more awkward. Sometimes I feel like I'm suppose to laugh at something when they are even though I don't want to. It's weird, I can't really explain it. I don't know, things aren't the same between best friend&I.
I started decorating my tote today. I haven't been feeling artsy lately and that makes me sad. For a while I was working on shirt projects but I haven't really finished any. I have no new designs and my old designs seem too childish. I want to do more mature prints. During winter break, I wanted to sew a dress but I never got to that. Since I am on summer vacation now, I hope that I will get myself to go out, buy fabric, and start sewing. Also to begin drawing new designs! :)
I'm trying to blog about neutral and happy stuff. How am I doing in this blog?
